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Monday, September 5, 2011

Not About Me


How could I get frustrated at this sweet face??? :)

I have found myself getting very frustrated lately ... with myself and with D.  I imagined the first few days and weeks after we brought B home in May being just horrible.  I could envision D screaming for my attention and acting out, but to my surprise we didn’t really see a whole lot of that.  We had one rough day that seemed to disappear quickly.  May became June and then July whizzed by and before I knew it it was August and D was back in Mother’s Morning Out and the summer was over.  In my mind, I thought  we had made it through the hard part.  WRONG!  I think that it has finally hit him that this baby isn’t going anywhere!  It is almost as if as little brother starts to smile, laugh, and interact more each day big brother is realizing that he doesn’t have all the attention anymore.

There have been several frustrating afternoons when I have honestly just wanted to yell at him “it is not about just you” or “life does not revolve around you little boy!”  As quickly as I want to say those things to him, I hear the Holy Spirit saying the same thing back to me.   How often do I want to make daily life about me and my comfort and my desires?  How often do I feel frustration or resentment at one of my boys when I have to attend to one of their needs instead of doing something I want to do?  

So ... at the Ramsey house we are working on a few things.  For big brother ... we are working on making sure that he gets a little extra attention and one on one time with Mom and Dad as we work through this life change for him. I know that it is good for him to know and learn that life isn’t all about him.  It is part of pointing his little heart toward Jesus Christ. The addition of a little brother is probably the biggest change he has ever had to face.  We are praying him through this one as we are sure it is the first of many big changes to come in his life.  We are also working hard on making sure we let him know what a big helper he is and trying to encourage him in his new role as a big brother.  

For Mamma ... I am working on praying each morning before my feet hit the floor that I remember that life isn’t just about me.  I am learning more each day about the high and sometimes hard calling that God gives to mothers.  It isn’t always glamorous.(Visions of cleaning poop off my living room carpet come to mind)  Each day we do tasks that we think often go unnoticed and then we get up the next day and do it again.  I am learning that they don’t go unnoticed.  The LORD does notice our work and He is pleased when He sees me working with a glad heart.  Learning that it isn’t “all about me” means that I will do the work each and every day and I will do it for HIM.  I will do because it honors the LORD and it brings a smile to His face to see His daughter accepting, embracing, and loving the job He has given her.

“whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.” 1 Corinthians 10:31

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