It seems lately I have heard several times how blessed I am how to have the parents I do. I will admit that I took them for granted for many years, particularly my mother. It took having babies myself for me to appreciate the pain, joy, and sacrifices she had experienced being my mother.
As we were packing up our stuff to head to Northwest Arkansas to stay with my parents until we go to Houston later this month, I found this note she sent me before I had Drew.
You are ready to pack your bag for the trip to the hospital. One of the things I remember about the day you were born involves a flat, glass marble your brother gave me on our trip to the hospital in Fayetteville. He knew I was hurting and he leaned over the seat and gave me a blue marble to hold on to so it wouldn’t hurt so much. I don’t have a blue marble to stick in your bag, but I do have this cross I wish you to take. After all, all we say and do is about the cross and the one who suffered pain for us so we could be blessed. He is with you in a way I can’t be. Hold tight to him.
Love and Prayers, Mom
As a soon to be first time mother, I was naive to what was ahead and thought that I was big enough to handle having a baby on my own. We lived in Florida and had pretty much told our parents that they could just come after Drew was born.
In her wisdom as a mother, she came anyway. I went into labor early and ended up having a c-section. She flew to Florida the day we came home from the hospital. I have never been so happy to see my mother. Since that day, our relationship has changed in a way that I never imagined. Each night that I am up at 2 am with a sick little boy, each day that I am privileged to hear little boy giggles, and each afternoon that I feel like I am losing my temper, our relationship gets a little stronger because I get it. I see the sacrifice and the hardship that comes with being a mother but I also see the extreme joy and happiness as well.
Mom holding Drew for the first time |
Thanks Mom. For loving me through the little years and then the years when I thought I could do it without you. For pointing me to Jesus as a child and now as a mother of children. You are simply the best and I am grateful God gave you to me.
Love, Lindsay